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Saturday, July 26, 2008
where have i been hiding???
So here I go roaming 'round Friendster and I see soooo many interesting faces. I visited my old friends who suddenly seemed extraordinarily interesting. :)
New this, new that, migrated there and went back here, had this and that, did a cool thing... you know, stuff like that. They've posted updated pictures of themselves that it's so easy to keep track on how they're all doing. It's amazing how many years have actually passed since I last saw or even talked to them but with a glimpse of those pictures, their whole life in a geist just comes flashing at me. It's amazingly good haha :D
And then I realized, "Where have I been hiding???"
I haven't updated my site for years (well, i've posted a couple of pictures just so I can brag about the ooober nice photo my brother took of me last May, but that's just about it). My site used to be a 'newspaper' of my life, always in the loop and never missing a beat! Since when did I start to lose that online hype that I had in me. Years must be getting into me. Haha
Can you imagine that I don't even know Facebook??? I still don't and refuse to learn what it is. My current occupation just leaves me with so little energy as to update and clean up my file. In the internet-free and mobile world in which I live in, alI I ever needed is my dependable mind, driving skills and sales talk.
Sigh.
In my hot pursuit of success, I realized just now that people around me are all having soooo much fun that I am the only one in this beautiful universe who is not kicking her shoes in the air and just forgetting about what is to come!
I'm going to have fun again. I've forgotten who I really was and what I was made for. I was made for wonderful adventures and smile that never ceases to exist. :)
I'm starting all over again. I will be living the life meant for me and be the 'me' that I would love to be. :D
Posted at 08:35 pm by issa_sarza
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Saturday, June 21, 2008
Yes, everything's all good. :) My happy hormones just keep fluttering inside me and I can't hide it. Haha. Thanks to all the wonderful stuff that happened during the week!
Candee, Eskie and I got together for the first and last time this year. (Yeah, I've been oober busy for the past 7 months and so have they).
I am happy to announce that my good friend Eskie is soon to get her sexy *bleep*-*bleep*-year-old tush hitched to a very kind Filipino man based in the States. I am just so amazed at how real soulmates can find each other despite waiting years, the miles between them and desperation in the midst of hope. I'm glad Eskie and John finally found each other. :)
Heehee. I'm all giddy 'cause I feel the same way with my Alien :)
Except for the years of waiting. And the miles. Well, you get my point. That good feeling when you find something you've been constantly in search of is what I mean by "same way". :)
I'm just happy. :)
Despite what occured between me and that old hag who's been bothering me non-stop during the week. I can just plainly blurt out that I hate the old hag. The old hag makes me sick. The old hag is a complete mental. I have two old hags in my life. One is way too old, a Geriatric. The other just acts geriatric but is actually half of the geriatric age. And they're both annoying. Anyway, no more ugly talk.
I'm concentrating on my smiling soul. :D
Have I mentioned that Alien and I have a business? Well, we have and it's an online natural personal care store. Check out our multiply site: www.organicsoaps.multiply.com. We also join the Cuenca bazaars every weekend starting mid-September.
We're both happy 'cause we just closed a large deal with our newest client. And because of this big client, we finally got our checking account! I'm so happy that we're improving! :D
Sigh!
There's nothing for me to do but thank God for all of these happy stuff. Allen once told me that to receive your blessings, you must have a thankful heart, a hopeful soul and positive attitude that clearly says "I know the blessings are on their way!", I believe him.
Everything good is on it's way :)
Posted at 02:08 am by issa_sarza
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Thursday, May 29, 2008
I couldn't believe it myself. I'm back. I'm online again... for good. I've been away for so long that I even forgot the address to my blog and had to search for my name on the web. Haha. Took me 3 days to finally find my old blog.
Finding it felt weird. Like when you see a long-lost friend, you can't believe what you're seeing. haha.
It's more like finding who I was 2 years ago and seeing that I'm no longer the Issa I used to be. Twas like I was reading someone else's blog.
I couldn't believe I could write that goooood!!! HAHAHAHA! (yeah, right.)
Well, just so all of you would know, I wasn't able to blog for a lot of different reasons. Here's a short list of the major events and things that happened which caused me to temporarily go on a "blog-vacation":
1. I'm in a real relationship now. Yeah, you read it right, I'm in a REAL relationship. My first ever attempt in committing myself to loving one person forever. :) woohoo!
No, I'm not married yet! haha. But in the eyes of God, we promised to love each other and make it work til forever ends. :) i've become this cheezy, I know.
But I'm damn proud of having him in my life. His name is Allen. Met him few days before I ditched the cyber world and seek a more financiailly rewarding career. hihi. Short of saying, I was too busy hanging around with my beau that checking my mails and going online would hinder me from spending those oh-so-sweet and lovely moments with him. :)
The only one who's man enough to love me :)
So lucky to have him around.
2. I found a new home! I traded my old and comfy "house" aka office with a high-paying, performance-based, oober exciting and ever challenging job where I'm so freakin mobile that my office is literally my car. Yeah, I've got staplers, stamps, paper clips, pencils and super efficient post-its in my glove compartment. Haha.
So far, I'm loving this freedom that I get to enjoy by being a Sunny Geisha in the Healthcare Industry. I proudly roam the streets of Makati in search for tons of Danna who can support my needs. :D
3. Allen and I are so busy with his new business, Organic personal care products. I've been helping him out through loads of bazaars in Ayala Alabang like the St. James Bazaar and other Cuenca weekend bazaars. And since we're reaping loads of moolah here, we've given it our 100% focus during weekends and off-office hours. :)
You guys should all check his stuff out, www.organicsoaps.multiply.com
I never thought that orangic stuff could be this hot right now. Especially our Glutathione variants. I use all the stuff we sell so I can practically testify to its efficacy. Well, I've tested all except for one variant and that is Glutathione. I just love my dark, mulatta skin and I think I would look stupid in light skin. :D
So that's about it. Two years ago, I was a completely different person. Today, everything about me changed. I no longer serve the same set of shitty people. I've turned my life around by having a partner in life, a new career, and a bright future with Allen's new business. :)
I came back and I'm living my life differently. I've become happier than my normal. :)
Posted at 09:55 pm by issa_sarza
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Wednesday, December 28, 2005
I'm not sure if I've waited for the end of the year to come or if I'm secretly trying to avoid it. On one hand, I'm looking forward to another smashing year full of big and small adventures and on the other hand, I'm scared of growing older. Haha. Question is, would I choose immortality and youth over brief yet exciting moments? I go for "live today, never mind tomorrow". Yeah, sounds like a plan :) Anyway, I'm thankful that 2005 is finally over. We could all use a fresh start. :) Since this will be my last entry for the year, I want to look back on all the things that happened and maybe shoot off a few thank yous to those who gave loads of meaning to my life duriing the year. (of course, this'll just be about me... how vain can I get?! harhar). So here goes: To the Big Guy Up There- God who's my healer, salvation and ultimate phone, email, and chat pal... thank you. You're the greatest. :) To my Mom and Dad who never ceases to uplift me everyday... thank you for all those wonderful talks we had, the endless hang-outs we have in our dining table, and all the love we've shared. :) You guys amaze me, having a heated "argument" one second and laughing together the next. You're one crazy, old couple and I love you. :) To my super friends, Jolie and Audrey who knows me inside and out... thank you. I know we don't see each other often, but girls, you get me all the time. :) Hey, book me in your busy schedules on my birthday, okay? I don't want to grow gray hair before we can get together! :) Little old ladies forever! To my neighbor and sister Donna who's always there when I call on God for a good friend... big thanks. I love how you always pop out at the right time. You know that it surprises me everytime. Kapatid, coffee tayo sa gas station? :) To all my Sisters in Esther who constantly showed me the true meaning of sisterhood... thanks. I've always been at home with you ladies. :) To Jacqui who's just sooo nice and accomodating... thank you. :) I enjoyed all the food your mom serves me everytime I go to your house. Haha. So when are we going to have our next sleepover at your house? :) To my all-time favorite Pot-Pot Girls -- Nalyn, Ria and Eskie... thank you. I couldn't have survived those oh-so-lonely days without you guys. You know what to do, just honk! Haha :) To all the other Pot-Pot buddies, seasonal flings, scary monsters dressed in human clothes and spaced-out chums I gained throughout the year, thanks. :) My 2005 would never have been this melodramatic and exciting without your big help. Thank you for all those humungous heaps of contribution. :) Lastly, to all the lovely people who come and go during the year, thank you for changing my life. I feel that I am a better person because of all of you. Looking back, I think I enjoyed the year despite all the stress that life threw at me. I guess that the amount of joyful moments exceeded those of the sad so I pretty much found the year okay and quite enjoyable. :) That's it, I'm gone for 2005! I'm never comin' back. Hello 2006! Hello adventures and hello to other bigger and better opportunities! Geez, it's really hard to try and sound like I'm enthusiastic about the whole thing. hahaha! But seriously, I'm ready for '06. Bring it on, baby! Woohoo!
Posted at 12:13 pm by issa_sarza
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Wednesday, December 07, 2005
There is something so cruel about change. Of course I still stand firm with my belief that change is good. But I have to admit that there is really something heart-wrenching about change.
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A girl meets a handsome soldier in their village. Eventually, they both fall in love with each other. In the beginning, they were both eager for intimacy and were practically inseparable. They would share countless moments together, numerous secrets and promises to each other. They have invested so much emotion on each other that they are completely, madly, and undeniably in love.
When it was time for the soldier to go to the mission that he was called for, he says goodbye to his girlfriend, and promises to come back to her so they may share the rest of their lives together. The girl believed his every word, waiting for him while thinking he'd stay the same way forever.
But during the war, the soldier begins to change.
He returns home and physically comes back to her. They feel a cold distant air between them and his once beloved girl seemed like a stranger to him.
The girl begins to wonder what she had done to drive him so far away from her.
She realizes that war changes people and his once beloved soldier has changed as well.
But so has she.
It was only a few months ago since they fell in love with one another, how come their once perfect love now became only a memory?
They begin to depart from each other and soon, they would finally drift apart, like all that has happened to them was just a dream... a thing of the past.
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Things happen and people change every so often that when we encounter the same people again, we look forward to seeing the old self without even realizing that a lot of things have already contributed to his change.
That is what I think is so cruel about change. The hurtful moments that come into view because things change.
But I guess that's how life is. In the end, people will understand why they had to go through change in order to be where they are.
And they'd be thankful that they did, no matter how cruel it felt days or months or years back.
Posted at 02:43 pm by issa_sarza
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Tuesday, November 29, 2005
impossible im-possibilities
When you think about the things you really want to do in your life, you get this zest to accomplish everything that seemed impossible before you realized your true desires.
It had been said many times before that if a person wanted something so badly, nothing is impossible.
And true enough, it has been proven on countless situations.
Well, lately I have encountered something that proved itself wanting. This time I could not prove the "nothing is impossible" thing.
Anyway, I'm leaving it.
It is wanting but indefinitely wanting. Who'd want to have that kind?
Posted at 11:12 am by issa_sarza
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Wednesday, November 23, 2005
Yesterday I attended a party that officially declared me as a grown up. I just had to post this because it's soooo blog-worthy. :)
I attended a bridal shower.
Yeah, complete with all the bride-did-you-knows, special wishes and of course, the stripper.
I wouldn't even be there if it weren't for our client who's getting married. I mean, I didn't even know why I had gotten myself in such a situation.
The first half of the evening went very nice. All of the ladies were drinking, did a bit of dancing & singing, laughed like crazy and talked endlessly. I figured that an all-girls party is really a great way of releasing the true animals inside a woman. :) I would advise men to suit up as women and attend one. I think they'll better understand the female creatures haha.
Anyway, the second half was more or less hell. First, I didn't like the idea of bringing a guy stripper in. But since it has become the expected traditional highlight of such an event, I had no arguments. Still, I felt that strip teasing was unnecessary for such an event. Why couldn't they just hold a Sex 101 crash course that night?? That would've been interesting. Or say, put up a show and tell and how-tos portion of numerous kinky items that a couple can use on their first night together. Anything in this level would have been more acceptable than the dancing stripping man. haha
I don't even see the point in him dancing and romancing the bride-to-be. It does not help her. I thought the purpose of the bridal shower is to help the bride prepare for their special night, to make her aware of "many" worldly things that will aid her in fully satisfying her soon-to-be hubby in fulfillment of their love. Unless the stripper's teaching her how to do that sexy dance, I don't think he's too much of a highlight. :)
Just so everybody knows, I did no peeking. :) I didn't look at all. I wanted to look so badly since I got curious, but I guess I put my vision of real love on top of everything else especially lust. I can already see disillusionment in my eyes if ever I went and had a peek at the man.
Call it corny or whatever, but I want all my lustful thoughts directed to one man and one man alone-- the one man that God has set especially apart for me and the one man I will choose to love forever.
I'd rather suffer from extreme suppression today than to regret my whole life for giving away my thoughts of sexuality to something I misunderstood as love (aka lust).
Yeah, it's dreadfully corny. But that's what I want. :)
Posted at 04:54 pm by issa_sarza
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Thursday, November 17, 2005
After a long while, I finally stopped procrastinating and have decided to post my long-awaited Halloween get-away with my good friend Jacqui. :)
Last October 30, I invited Jacqui to join me in my mini-adventure to Intramuros-- the Walled-City in Manila. It's like travelling to another space and time where everywhere you look would give you a very nostalgic feeling.
I felt myself transported to the old times where people wore barongs and sayas. A lot of kalesas passed by while we were walking beside the gothic walls and I could literally feel the cobblestones with my every step.
And because I am the forgetful person that I am, I completely forgot to tell Jacqui to bring her Digital Camera and so we resorted to a less glamorous but still workable and dignified way of shooting our favorite spots in Intramuros. :) Yes, camera phone. haha. Jacqui wanted to kill me for forgetting haha.
Anyway, here are the pictures we took in that lovely little city. :) By the way, I think I spent nearly 100 pesos in sending all of these pictures to my email hehe.
Big lesson: next time, bring a real camera.
Here's me and Jacqui in front of St. Augustine's church.
After lunch, we headed straight to this church to check out their terribly old museum. :)
This one's taken because of the building behind me. :)
Ain't it lovely?
Another one in the same building...
Okay, so now I'm just showing off haha.
Seriously, can you see those gorgeous cobblestones???
haha... I feel like a freakin' tourist!
My attempt to ride a Kalesa without a manong to drive it for me! :)
FYI: there's no horse haha
This is Manila Cathedral's tower.
It was so damn hot that day that the sun gave off a nice lighting to my picture :)
And this is St. Augustine's Church Tower.
Oh yeah, this picture's terribly huge.... I don't even know how to edit it... haha.
Anyway, this was in the staircase in St. Augustine. No one was there that time so we had loads of free space to pose and take pictures. :)
Hay... another big photo.... It just keeps getting bigger and better. Haha. This is the actual musical notes whatever that the choir in St. Augustine used during mass celebrations. It was soooo big it was almost the same size as a huge poster!
In some garden inside the Church. :)
I love these windows. They look so old...
Well, apart from the fact that they really are old, the stuff beyond those windows are old.
Sadako might arise. Haha.
Here's an eerie-looking well inside Casa Manila, another ancient building in Intramuros.
Vavavoom!
Haha, can I just say that posing in the fountain in Casa Manila was one of the highlights of our trip?! haha
Jacqui and I kept laughing our arses off before we could even get this shot done! hahaha
Now here's a top view of the very lovely fountain.
More of the fountain and me.
I hope the reader's not gagging yet because of my picture overload haha!
And lastly, the ruins. :)
This could have looked a lot better if I had a very nice and dependable camera. :)
Anyhoo, there goes our adventure in Manila. :) Aside from getting lost on our way back to her house, Jaqui and I had countless & unforgettable moments of fun that day. I asked her to go to Vigan with me next time haha. She just went "okay". :) Goodie.
Posted at 03:38 pm by issa_sarza
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Monday, November 14, 2005
I once had a fortune cookie that read:
Know the difference between true love and relationships of convenience-- and then be that difference.
I saved that quote on my mobile and pda just in case I needed something to ponder on. And I've been thinking about what it meant ever since. Somehow the meaning eludes me each time I try seeking it.
But now I decide to end my fruitless endeavor and try to answer it today with all the logic and reason my little mind can muster.
Okay, what is true love? I believe that it is something given by God and God alone. It is a gift from Him that only the recipient can atest to its geniunity. True love, romantically speaking, is like two people singing from the heart. Like a duet whose voices blend so very well that it gives God glory. If a couple does not bring glory to the Lord, then I am assuming that it is not true love. It is merely the appetizer in one's life. The main course is still coming and the appetizer is just a trigger to your hunger for the main dish.
Now, relationships of convenience. Say, one night stands? Yes, it may be one. But it's more of dating but not serious. It's like you're doing it because you find emotional security with that person.
So the difference between true love and relationships of convenience is normality in relating to the opposite sex. Am I normal then?
Answer is no. It's a definite NO.
I am in a totally different league.
I am in still in the singles and absolutely unattached league. hehe. I don't have to worry about trying to be "that" difference. I am nowhere between those two because I am not anywhere inside a relationship.
So I guess I can say I am just a friend. A super-sunshine friend who is not loving someone romantically yet but trying to love as many people as possible. There.
Haha. Yes I am...
Geez... where do I get these things??? Forgive me people, I'll never write like this again, ever. haha funny.
Posted at 07:16 pm by issa_sarza
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Friday, October 28, 2005
There can only be several times in life where a person can choose. And if life presents this as an opportunity for us to actually practice our free will, we do the wrong thing and choose the "darker" option.
I believe that a person always has two major choices in life. To choose to be happy or choose to be otherwise.
In every situation-- good, bad, sick, surprising, cheerful, wonderful, sick, annoying or just plain nothing, a person chooses between looking at it from the window of happiness or the window of loneliness.
I choose happiness. I'd choose it any time of the day.
Even if the car breaks down and leaves me out on a cold & rainy night, even if all of my friends can't go out on a Friday night with me, even if I'm sick and my future would seem so very, very bleak, even when I feel like things are not going the way I thought it should be and even when the world's so gloomy and love can't be seen anywhere... I will choose to be happy and will decide on spreading it all around.
Sometimes it doesn't matter where you're in, or how your life is or what is going for you, what's important is your focus on the lovely concept of joy in whatever moment you're in... the beautiful realization that enjoying what is now inspite of its ugly exterior is just amazingly refreshing. People should try it.
What the world needs now is love, sweet love...
... and more people who would choose happiness over any other choice.
Posted at 10:36 pm by issa_sarza
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